Don't you take your time, young man
Keep on drifting and
Ain't no telling where yo land.” -
Erykah Badu- Mama’s Gun-(2000)
That track and a big ass blunt back then was straight up perfection. She spoke to me and that wasn’t easy to do cause of the noise. There’s was so many different personalties that came with an individual soundtrack and if we got high enough we were going to listen to your song. We are going to get to your story I just hope I could hear it tonight because of all of this noise. Yeah, it’s Saturday night so you know I am going to have leave because she got some a couple Buddas and the after hours is usually ridiculous but you can still chill here and I know this dude right here has been quiet and he’s been listening, I love him to death and he’s going to understand. I was overwhelmed because that song got in my head. On the surface I was going a little backwards depending on your morality perspective. I had said yes to drugs and I was adjusting from never touching the stuff to how far can I take this without fucking up too bad? I was overwhelmed because Mama’s Gun album has filled my head with questions. I was going to need to have a few drinks with Sarah before the after hours because she was the voice of reason and my moral thermometer. She didn’t do drugs, she would have a few drinks, and steal most of my cigarettes but I could tell her just about anything. She was the best judge of character you could possible want. A true Catholic that was never preachy or judgmental she had that mystic quality of grown woman very young. I would expose her to an odd cast of people in small doses sporadically. I had a level of respect for her and she was my oldest friend. We could both be thrown right into nosiest situation and makes some sense of all of it. She listened to me cry about my broken heart for over a year at this point and knew I was still a bit lost. I had to explain to her that going out once a week and taking a little pill really helped. I opened myself up again socially and I was forming a soul binding relationship with music. She wasn’t impressed that I needed a substance to connect with music but I assured her I was going to stay in control. I was already a fully functioning pothead that only went out to the club once a week. This was music to my ears. It’s always important to have that one person good on board in your life to help you along. I wasn’t wasting time anymore because I cheated. It was becoming easier to find the moment. I had a clear vision of it but how was I going to seize it all? I started making sense of all that noise. That album means something to you and I understand why love it so much. I am very happy I smoked with you and now this song is going to always remind me of you and now it’s part of my story. Speaking of my story, my podcast didn’t quite take off like I would have liked. I am not closing the door on it so it may be back some day soon. I am going to throw you a few words more often. It may be something like today or something else. I enjoy when I have no real plan and as you can see some weird shit came out. I hope everyone is looking for something intangible out there. I want you to go out and find that something that you are mssing. There’s something to gain for sure. Take care everyone. See you soon.
